林千金 ♥♥

♥ Sep 22, 2010

recently i felt so lost and confused and no doubt baby was suffering. i used to share everything with him but recently its seems like i only kept everything to myself and simply expecting to know bout everything, hw i feel, wad i m thinking etc. and we kept having arguement over this. i kept complaining that he's not there when i needed him.. but its that i m just too selfish..
today i decided to go for some "thinking" time myself. didnt go home for dinner eventhough i told mum i wanted dinner. but simply dun feel like gg hm becos we had another arguement. hence, after work i travel to wcp myself.. walked arnd for bout an hour.. finally settle myself down at park2 cos i knew park1 will definately be crowded and crowd was the least i needed. i kept asking myself wad do i really want? wad do i really need? is he the one i wanna spend my life with? has he done enough for me. den i stopped. cos i realised, i will never be satisfied. becos after all that he has done for me, i only keep expecting more from him. i will never stop asking for more.
finally some sense came knocking on e door, i asked myself, what has he done wrong? to keep getting all these shit from me. and at that point, i knew. i did not face reality. i only kept increasing my expectations! and i had e urgue to call him up but i didnt have the courage. i dunnoe wad to say to him. and fate played its part. i turned around, saw someone so familliar walking towards me. then he sat down. he told me , we needed a heart to heart talk. and we did. over this past wk, i've hurt him so much. i felt terrible. i told him i couldnt find mysself.. so lost.. so unsure.. n i apologised for every word i've said.
i really hope that its sunshine after rain. i really hope that i can open up to him like i used too. really wish for things to work out well. i can only pray for the best nw.

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9/22/2010 09:00:00 PM

♥ Sep 20, 2010

its been freaking long since i last update my blog. well becos i m very lazy and dun even wanna bother bout it.. n nw since i m super free i will keep it alive for abit.
1709, fri-
baby came to fetch me after work. we went over to clementi for claypot dinner with baby, fen and heng. had some pretty good laugh during dinner because baby! he was so stone. LOL. anyways, after dinner went back to wc to start part 2 of the night = MAHJONG! half way thru i was super hungry and heng was like " mac . order mac. " over like 5 times.. in e end we all ordered mac for supper. played till 4. sent fen down for cab and back to sleep.

1809, sat-

HAPPY 396TH DAYS tgt! well, basically we spent the whole day at hm and i play my time away while baby simply nap. den when i finally can rest baby woke up and went to buy the groceries! he cooked me dinner + soup. yummy.. but i simply cant sleep well. 5 hrs of sleep frm last night..

1909, sun-
i finally got to slp only this morning at 5am. simply can't slp. something is so wrong with me. when i woke up its 11+ 12? breakfast is bought! i just have to wake up , wash up n eat.. hahha.

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9/20/2010 02:57:00 PM

♥ Sep 5, 2010

since i m awake early and have got nothing to do so do a lil' update first.

0309 fri,

after work went over to wheelock place for sakae sushi with sis n tri. didn't eat much but we talked alot. LOL. aftermath went over to ION to look for zw's present. and the 1 i saw was 425. haha. walked arnd abit here n there, saw Timothy. its been ages since i last saw him man. only Hi n Bye becos he's working. then slowly stroll down orchard road. Tri saw BEN n JERRYS and she said feel like having but skipped it cos it was fattening, BUT she ask us to go for earthquake instead! -.-''' so went to cine for swensens. didnt eat earthquake la, cos we're too full. so went for the 5 scoops instead. over at cine there was so many memories for tri n me, cos in the past whenever we are at cine we would go to bangkok !!! hahaha. after the ice cream, cabbed hm .

0409 sat,

woke up at 6+ *tired* prepared and went for KOPI ROTI before work. after work, trained hm with sis. took a lil' nap. after preparing went over to interchange to meet baby. den train down to meet the rest . (yeap. change of plan, ZW n KOK joined us too) went to novena for steamboat buffet and after dinner went to chinatown, met up with August and gf. den went to Family KTV for our k session ! sang frm 10-1. its kinda cheap over there cos unlimited drinks and each person only $17.40 ... not bad huh. hahaha. after k session it was HM sweet HM...

0509 sun-

later will b meeting the rest at admiralty for Jonas baby shower. hmm.. guess thats my wkend!!

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9/05/2010 12:26:00 PM

♥ Sep 2, 2010

while waiting for baby i shall update my blog. =x

2708-

went to no.5 for chicken wings in the end were disappointed cos we're supposed to b at 25? stupid rules. fcuk . so went to butter factory. was way too crowded and tri is too bored so we leave after a drink. went for supper before heading hm.

2808-

woke up super early for dental appt. and after dental was still early so went hm to grab some stuff before training down to cityhall to meet sis with baby n bro. reach white sand, went to have SUPERDOG for lunch. aftermath went to buy Joshua's present before gg over to e chalet. left arnd 1030.went to liang court's party world to meet up with manross & gang . sang till 3+? damn worn out man!

2908-

slept e whole day . only woke up for lunch and we're done. 1 meal a day. i like that idea. LOL!

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9/02/2010 07:40:00 PM