again...nth to do. so bored. and have got alot of things inside my mind but dunnoe who talk to.so decided to blog again. *sighs* decided to come clean with everything today. let me get the story started.
once this girl got to know this guy at bangkok. first at a friend's bdae. but din even talked. after that there's fighting between her friends' and him. den they started talking. since then, everytime when they're at bangkok they would drink together. after long, the guy finally took the first step asking for her contact. they started contacting and meeting out for nightlife. in the first, this girl only took him as a very simple friend. when ever they chat on the phone, this guy would promise her stuffs. but she wouldn't believe but her heart slowly started to melt. went to meet him more than often. *silly eh?* then, chats on the phone turned to quarrels. and things would turn ugly. they would throw vulgars at each other and hang up. then this girl realised as times passes, she started to like him. she would even go up to his house to meet him den go for meals often. after her nightlife with her friends would go over to meet him instead of going home to rest. they would quarrel on the phone every now and then till the girl got so tired that she dont wanna talk so decided to let him win everytime.
this girl no longer goes to bangkok and changed to sabai. the guy continues at bangkok. there's once, the girl's at sabai and the guy decided to go over to sabai to look for her. but quarrelled outside sabai. so the girl went crazy and got so close with one of her friend just to spike him.after seeing what happened, the guy also spiked her back. and they both played their own game over there. but is it worth it? and even went seperate ways and which caused them to quarrel even worst when her friend told him, he was her boyfriend. *sighs* after hours of argument they settled in peace. but there's a pin in the guy's heart. and that night he got so drunk and called her the next morning and picked a quarrel again. during that quarrel the guy hurted so much. and she just stopped everything and off her phone e whole day just to avoid quarreling. she's so tired of giving and saying sorry when she's nt in fault. when they're together they can really be sweet, but once not together things would be different. *sighs* friends asked her to give up and forget bout him but is so easy? no.. its really very hard.. its so difficult...*sighs*
he just dun understand what she wants. what's she thinking and how's she feeling deep down inside her heart. he ask her to be with her, but is it just so simple? no. 2 person being together involves alot of things. and the most important, she feels no security with him. she's scared. really scare to get hurt once again. but does he understands? she dun think so. he don't like her getting close with guys. she only can have him. but they're nt together.she can only think of him and like him. but they're nt together. *sighs* really dunnoe what to do. only know that I'M SCARED OF GETTING HURT. THATS ALLL-
leave her alone,
ms lim-
